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Payday, The Family, & A Fast Food Place


Written when we use to get paychecks

Sketch by the Poet

I

It’s payday.

So, you all go out to eat 
at a fast-food place. 
The girl at the counter
impatiently grasp her calculating register,
while you find out what the wife wants 
& what your son & daughter should get.
 
II
Your mind works silently
assembling the items
in an orderly fashion.
“May I help you, sir?,”
breaks your train of thought; 
but you mumble out the order, anyway.
Hurried, confused, & unsure of what you got,
you carry the tray to the table 
 
III
Your son is perched on the windowsill.
Your wife shouts out, “Here comes daddy — 
better be good now.”
While your daughter struggles in vain
to escape the undeserved prison
of the high chair’s re straining straps.
You pass out the paper parcels
& your daughter deftly opens
her milk shake
defiantly pouring it over
her chin, dress, & legs
all at once.

IV
“Move”, you say for the 5th time
to your son, who seems to be
constantly grabbing for you,
while your wife continues
about all the wonderful items
she has seen for sale in
the occupant mail.
 
V
As you prepare to leave,
four or five adolescents come in.
They are pushing, joking,
& acting tough.
You hope to avoid
confronting them
& rush your family 
through their meal.
 
VI
You rapidly gather & throw away
anything unsalvageable.
Clean & release your daughter,
& head towards the exit. 
“Sir, sir”, you hear a young voice call;
but you dare not turn around.
Grabbing your family,
you hurry them into the car.
Never really hearing clearly, 
what the youth is shouting about.
 
VII
Driving off,
you look in your mirror
& see the boy waving
a familiar looking blue object
wildly over his head. 
Then, you stop the car,
look for your jacket,
realize you forgot it,
& it has your pay check in its pocket.

Sketch by the poet

Thanks for reading. In 1981, I self published a small collection of poems “Beginnings My First Picture Book”. I did it on a portable typewriter and had the pages copied and stapled at Quick Copies. It was $125 for 100 copies.

Thirteen Ways of Looking at a 64 Dodge Dart


“This poem is inspired by Wallace Stevens’
 
Thirteen Ways of Looking at a Blackbird. There are a lot of poems that borrow that structure — and here’s one more. This one’s about a car I used to love, a ’64 Dodge Dart. Like most things I have loved, it was loud, unreliable, and hard to let go of.”

I

Among miles of impound lots,   
I wondered which one would have  
my Dodge Dart.   

II

I was of three minds.
My father loved his version.
I loved my Dart. I bought it used for 650.
My partner loved it almost as much.
Did we love it enough to pay the impound fees?

III

The 64 Dodge Dart was sexy 
in 1964, but by the 21st century 
it was a rusty relic.

IV

A man and a woman   
are one.   
A man and a woman and an old car    
are a disagreement.   

V

I do not know which to prefer,   
the slant six engine,
the push button automatic transmission,
or that it was just like dad’s Plymouth Valiant.   

VI

Icicles filled the long window.   
The heater took forever to warm up
and the defroster blew the best
with the windows open.

VII

O thin men of Tesla,   
why do you frown upon the gas guzzling Dart?   
Is it jealousy? Are you threatened by its barbaric simplicity?
Do you see how much I enjoy standing over her carburetor
screwdriver in hand to give her more air?
I don’t need a computer to talk to her.  

VIII

I know noble accents
and lucid, inescapable rhythms.
And I know, too,   
That the gas guzzling Dart will no longer be 
involved in what the world knows.   

IX

When the Dart flew out of sight,   
It marked the horizon with a cloud of smoke
and left a trail of various fluids.

X

At the sound of the Dart’s slant 6 engine   
cruising through a yellow-red light,   
Even the bawds of euphony   
Would cry out sharply.   

XI

We rode over the bay area
in this sporty classic, hoping the brakes would hold.   
Once, we overtook a Plymouth Valiant
it was a shadow of   
Dad’s pristine automobile and smoke less than we did.   

XII

The river is moving.   
The Dart must be drowning.   

XIII

It was evening all afternoon.   
It was snowing
and it was going to snow.   
The Dart sat silent in the impound lot
I turned the key. She didn’t even choke.
The impound fee 450. I left her there to rest.

This poem was published in San Diego’s Poetry Annual 2014 — 2025

https://sandiegopoetryannual.com/order/free-pdf/

Lampyris

I close my eyes in meditation.
A heavy mental fog of other thoughts
distract my mindful intentions.
I inhale and exhale deeply until it’s clear.

Eventually, I find the light within
the spark of who I am. I feel you.
A firefly hovering near my soul.
My forgotten guardian angel.

I remember our early struggles,
mine to keep life going. A quest for immortality.
Yours to keep me alive long enough to realize
there is no escape from mortality.

As the glow of life flickers, I appreciate
the light of my firefly hovering near my soul.

Jeremy P. McKay

Photo by Keegan Houser on Unsplash

Listening Break

No brushes, no sketchbook, no easel…
he steadies himself on the fence posts
and shuffles his feet along the familiar path
each step its own small battle.

He struggles to reach the clearing 
where the dead, hollowed trees stand.
Their silhouettes are like a Rorschach 
inkblot interrupting the horizon.

He sits on a familiar log, catches
his breath and remembers what he has
captured here. How each brush stroke 
could open his soul. God, what’s next?

“Open that thermos and pour a coffee.”
He drinks in silence. The day awakens.

Friends Link to read Original Post On Medium.com

Image was from Photo by Meg MacDonald on Unsplash. link no longer works

A Rusted Hinge

Hey Jeremy,

There is a hinge rusted shut. 
The first time it was closed was so long ago.
It was so important to you at the time. 
I coiled myself around it so it would stay shut. 
Protecting you was all I wanted to do.

Hey Ego,

I can’t even remember what this was closed for. 
I see the golden twine you’ve wrapped around it. 
I can see it. I feel its weight —
and the love you wrapped it in.

Can you loosen up on this one hinge? Let the coil unravel?
Let my tears oil the rusty pins and let’s open it together.

Dear Jeremy,

There seem to be a lot of needs in there.
The need to be right. The need to be correct. 
These are not actually hidden —
just locked in feeling that support your obstinate tendencies.
This space needs more light, more room to play.

Dear Ego, 

I appreciate your help. 
Now let’s remove the door and take down the walls.
Maybe we can open up and release the need to be right, 
And gain the vision and position that being wrong 
Or making errors is not a reflection on us.

I am first and foremost soul an intricate part of divinity. 
Allow me to experience life in less than perfect ways. 
It is ok to make odd turns on this journey. 
I love your intention to protect me.

Friend link to the original publish on Medium

https://medium.com/know-thyself-heal-thyself/a-rusted-hinge-9bb36e46c0a9?sk=148fb25265728d6eea88d6a1d5f508f7

Two Exits Up Ahead

Thank you Robert Frost

Two exits up ahead.
One to the left could go west,
One to the right could go east,
I could drive straight past
Continuing down the predictable path.

The exit on the right provides a return
Route to beginnings — attempts at do overs.
The other tempts me. It is new unexplored
A place to forge forward despite mistakes or
I could just continue forward.

Going straight ahead keeping my momentum
Following the route laid out by me for me
Relentlessly marching one foot in front of the other
Accomplishing surviving plus ignoring regrets
Going forwards is best, at least that is they expect.

They are not driving today. It is my choice.
Left, Right or straight ahead. The explorer,
The part of me that thinks I am still young
Suggest left. It probably won’t kill me to take
A look. But can I glimpse and return.

The ramp on the right speaks to me
“Going to your past will not change it,
Following me to make amends is necessary
Unavoidable, if you do not take me now
I will show up again.” What is right is not always helpful.

Wondering about what could have been
I responsibly continue straight past each exit.
Hopeful the choice will come up again
So I can visit the past, heal some more
Or move on to the new and unexplored.

Jeremy P. McKay ©2021

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